Sanctuary of God
(A Walk through a Prayer Labryinth)

Hold my hand
Rub my back
Breathe me in & Dont take it back
Because I can take no more unfailing love
As the music chants, I wait for the touch of a hand, the brush on my back, or the breath that seems like something more than usual.
Nothing happens, I came to the center and knelt as a prince and repeated waiting, not willing to leave until I felt something.
"Well, perhaps it will happen at the end" I think and I walk as a bride would between the many lines until I exit the circle and drop to my knees at the altar giving one more LONG chance for God to make Himself known to me and give me the presence I long for.
I prayed and words from the Christmas story come to me of all things. As I said them, they didnt seem quite right, but I dont try to coerse the moment and just let them flow ... "Then the angel came to Mary and said onto them 'Lo a child will be born and they will call him Jesus, because he will save you from your sin'" ... Now as I repeat it, I realize the words are "Immanuel, God with us!" That is what they will call him, that is what he was trying to say.
He was there, he is HERE,
That is the phrase.
That is what he was trying to say!

And the fragile sand dollar broke in my hand and the doves flew out. And a beetle ran across the floor and I couldnt kill it. As I tried to sacrifice it in the flame of the candle, it only scurried at me and I jumped and laughed at myself a good belly laugh.