WHY AM I STILL TALKING???
So I had an appointment with my chronic pain client today and she asked me a question about going to this new spiritual director/massage therapist because she refered her to some chiropractor that did "energy work" on her. In an effort to not be "that" therapist that will say something bad about other therapist just to keep their business. I asked her if she ever had done meditation, because I thought she could use the "centering" and "grounding" (she has an anxious quality about her) and she then asked questions ... somehow from there I said something about her flitting around from place to place, which sounded offensive, then I tried to explain it, which brought me someplace else that I didnt even mean and it just became one big mess. I was like why is my mouth still moving????

Then later I had a conversation with someone about another friend and that person had started to call her and I'm like WHAT are the chances and I was thinking I shouldnt be having this conversation with her, she doesnt need to have any bias towards this guys. JUST SHUT UP ALREADY MAR!!!! Put your lips together and just stop and think.

A bunch of people were talking about the fact of being single, you are afraid to offer complements, because you fear they will be misconstrued as greater romantic interest than mere appreciation of the person. Well I hope others risk that misinterpretation for the greater end, so this section of my blog I offer with love and without reservation or fear of the risk it would incur.

Compliments of the day :
Cory, you can be the master of a compliment and I hope I express mine of you as much as you do me.

TK, you are the best hugger and I appreciate that you are as free with them as I want to be with my compliments. There is nothing like a big guy to give you a squeeze that makes you feel secured.

Laura, you're love for family and friends does not go unnoticed and I know your nephews and nieces will survive as they get older just by the love you have shown so far in their lives. They will know what true love is.

John Gross(sp?), you are my hero! Thanks for taking on Evan as a mentor and fighting for the underdog! You are the ones that fight for those that can not fight for themselves. You are my hero.

Thank God the lily resurrected!I am so lucky that damn thing came back to life. I neglected it for over a week, because both my "mothers" ... the real one and my older sister ... told me to water it. I was so irritated by being over babied that I refuse to water it until my sister discovered the offspring of my stubborness almost drooping to the ground.

The ripped skirt guy lives in his incarnated "gay friend". Stay posted for Thursday's recap of lunch.

So last night I saw Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind with LT. Yes I realize we are the last ones to see this movie, but when it was done both Laura and I just sat there like we were still caught in the confusion. That movie was messed up! I would never like memories erased. Those memories that are great and yet painful, I would never trade, no matter how great the pain. Those that are painful and unhappy, well I would rather not learn that lesson twice. As the saying goes, what doesnt kill me, makes me stronger. I have loved, I have lost and I have yet to experience great joys and great pains, I am sure.I say bring them on! ... wait a second ... let's bring on a few good ones first God, if I can choose! :-)

Well no more marketing calls this morning, I think I scared them away.

Best moments of this weekend: Thats a toughy ... I will do a Top Three list how about, in no particular order. 1. A Double Feature of Notebook (A smart love story) & The Terminal (funny & charming) 2. Ending up at the farmers market on Saturday morning, (bing cherries,fresh lemonade, a smothered hotdog,and bought a bunch of beautiful papers and some new watercolor pencils), I stopped by the graveyard by the Lakes and sat by the Gravestone marked "HOPE" and wrote my journal on life giving stuff, then headed over for a little time with the lovely miss towle 3. Had a couple of great meals with old friends I havent seen for a while.

Stupid Phone Marketers! So I decided to blog today after I got a phone call for David, my father who has been dead for two years. I have temporarily moved in with my mother for two months while I find a place to live. She is in Alaska for a month and in the week she has been gone I have received numerous calls for "Jean or Dave". Marketers are normally annoying, but I wonder how my mom deals with this constant insensitive reminder of her beloved husbands death. Today I received a call that went something like this:

"Hello"
"Hello, is David there?" (phone bank noises behind him)
"No he's not" (in an annoyed voice, relatively speaking I guess, really there is reminders of him all over this house)
"Is there a good time to reach him?"
"No"
"Is this Jean?"
"No this is her daughter, can I help you?"
"Do you make decisions for them regarding siding for the house?"
"No I have no decision making power whatsoever?"
"Will your dad be back later?"
"No he doesnt live here anymore." (tongue in cheek)
"Does your mom live there?"
"Yes. But we have no siding and we will not be installing any ever again. My father is dead and your marketing attempts are not welcome here. Please do not call again."

Sheez, I cant believe how annoyed I am getting by such calls. Do you think he is writing on HIS blog about the crazy wench he called that day? ;-) Any suggestions for future calls?

Best Thing to Happen to Me: Had a great lunch with Naomi, but getting my phone for $70 has to be the big winner.

So it was nice to have lunch with Naomi at the Rainbow Restaurant. I still get a kick out of having lunch with friends on a work week, there is something about it that makes me feel like I'm playing hooky. Wierd since I've been out of the corporate grind for like 4 years now! Other favorites are seeing a late night movie on a "school night" or waking a roommate,getting some food and watching a storm in the middle of the night, or calling in sick and doing something fun. I still remember the time Kristin and I went to Noah's Ark in Wisconsin Dell and I called FROM the park to my work (Wells Fargo) and told my boss I was sick!!!! Unbelievable. So What was your best hookie story?

Other funny event for the day: I was at Barnes and Noble by the Galleria and as I was checking out, some cops entered and went to the office behind the check out where there was a kid (probably 16-18)with a stack of books he had undoubtedly been caught shoplifting. Boy have times changed since I was a kid. I stalled as long as I could to see what books there were, but only could tell that they were likely some fiction and some text or how-to books of some kind. I hope the cops pointed out the fact there was a public library just across the street. What do you think the appropriate prosecution is for stealing books??? :-)

Best thing that happened today: Talked to a friend that I havent talked to in years. It was good to catch up with Rachelle and she was just the breath of "positive" I needed to give this day a boost.

So sorry this has been ages and hopefully my blogging will go unnoticed for awhile. I have decided that things are loading on the Questions side of my life list: Where should I live? Rent vs Buy? Roomie vs No Roomie? What Roomie? What to do with a guy that doesnt appreciate me and what to do with the guy that likes me that I dont appreciate? How do I bring some sort of consistency in my income, how do I keep myself from plateauing in my craft(school,mentor,etc)? Do I pursue areas of touch that are not money makers? How do I fund them? Which ones do I pursue? Or do I take a crazy offer for a place to live and a job offered to me in NC? Obviously that is an easy option in some ways, but it is rash and a cheap way out in many others. I lost my weekly client today and it has made me rethink all this crap.

So I would be completely okay with something in the answer column before I get anymore questions if you're interested God. I know I am not alone and there are others with much more pains in life. But (cause everyone has a big butt) my mother says I have to get better for asking for things, so here is my request. If I have ever been an encouragement or help to you in some way and you have anything left in your reservoirs besides what you need, feel free to volley back my way these days. Sweet dreams all, may you receive some well needed answers yourself.