Day 22 of fast and Day 17 of not cheating -
So I finally removed the Diet Coke from the fridge at work and moved it to my car. I really struggled over the question of why I couldnt drink just one and return to a consistent diet of not drinking it. I know you might question my ability to do so after reading my blog, but if I dont do it, how will I know. I called my sponsor ... or prayer partner as the case can be and she was unavailable. So then I dialed Anna who was on the road, but available by phone. She told me "You know what would feel really empowering? To empty it out." Not buying it, I emphasized the fact that I didnt think that Diet Coke should be the boss of me and I just thought it might taste good and it was there, why couldnt I drink it and not return to the habit of it. I'm not really sure what she said from there, I know it made sense and it included not drinking it, but pretty much all I heard from then on was the Peanuts teacher saying "wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah".

I figured I would probably empty it out, but I needed some time for it to settle in. My stubborn/defiant side shows itself at these times and I need to just let these things settle in and mull on it before I can swallow it so to speak. So the Diet Coke sat in my car. It sat in my car as I went up to church to set up my table, it sat in my car as I drove home, it sat in my car as I went to my apartment. Where I had an IM conversation with Naomi and Javs who told me to "step away from the car Marlene" "Open the DC, pour it out on the ground and step away from the open can" ;-) Blah, blah, blah. I think I could drink it and return to my fast, however I'm considering that perhaps it is not so much that I can, but the contest comes more in not.