Day 14 of fast and Day 9 of cheating -
So yesterday I had a great photoshop pic of Diet Coke with my lip prints on it. Kind of my own personal shrine over the grave of my "love". However, I found out that shrine will cost me an extra upteen dollars to upgrade to Ultimate Blogspot or whatever it is called. So for now my description will have to do!

Description (You didnt think I was serious did ya?): It was a Diet Coke bottle with sweat dripping off it. Then I kissed a piece of paper for a personal touch and scanned it in and then photoshopped it on to the bottle. It was a personal gift of love and work of art. he,he. I have no possible reason to EVER say anything about Jenell's stories about her catnow, unless I am totally just kidding. Please know that is true if I do Jenell. I am just giving you a hard time in jest.

Speaking of Jenell, she told me she appreciated "my ability to live without shame - able to laugh at yourself and tell other people of your failings". Well thank you, but I tell you Jenell, not to get all serious in this blog, but there was a time where I was very much a deciever in my life. I was very insecure and I was quite performance = love oriented. When my life blew up and everybody knew the truth about how bad of a screw up I really was, I discovered two things. The first, that I never want to be that out of touch with God again and the second, I was better off to have ONE friend who kind of loved me faults and all, than several friends in love with someone I wasnt. The irony of this time was that it was an extremely insecure position for people to accept an illusion I had created and not have anyone know who I truly was. Besides it is extremely exhausting to live in a dillusional world, I would rather keep to a less attractive reality. It is much more condusive to my laziness ;-)

Okay enough seriousness, back to Diet Coke. I dont have much to say today, except I think I am finding myself to be like a smoker who has given it up. I am getting fat, since I am taking away my "diet" drink and have now subsituted sweets and more sweets! Oie avey what a viscious circle. I must now excercise to enable my excess sweet eating. :-) Run 1 mile ... eat one donut ... Run 2 miles ... have Mountain Dew. Okay here is my question for all those that are actually reading this thing. What is your one junk food guilty pleasure? ... Mine is Hostess Cupcakes. LOL I'm crazy for them. I mean not every day, but if I feel like splurgin or am down, it's HCs for me. They are high up in my comfort foods. So come on, lets here 'em!